Sun’s Shadow

By. Jalin R Marie

Nothing in this world beats the feeling of loneliness. Nothing in this world hides any part of me that I don’t regret. When I look at the sky I feel somber. I feel the need to fly and dance in the atmosphere like a gust of wind. It’s almost as if I belong there. Do the birds ever feel lonely? When birds chirp, are they talking to their loved ones and looking at the sky with the same love as I? Sometimes I gloat and peer at others as if I don’t wish to. Wish for a chance to become my own greatness. The sky shares the same shine. 

I’m envious of how others are able to shine so brightly with just one light bulb. I feel as though it takes the whole sun to ignite my flame. Though it is only 12 hours a day, imagine if it was 24 hours of light. Would I be able to find my way? I am aware of the sky’s ability to illuminate even the darkest of things. The shadow that it creates behind them represents a past that’s never escaped. But it’s not about escaping, can I endure it? 

I wish to hug her and love her. And one day I will, without my contour slipping through my grasp. I’ll tell her that it’s ok. I’ll tell her that though it’s not over yet until i’ve fulfilled my purpose but until then we can be ourselves. We can be comfortable in our own skin again. Regaining my consciousness I will triumph with my shadow self. My spirit will prevail and not drown with others’ shadows. I will not run away from what is mine, which is you.

 As I realize the sun’s job is to illuminate; is to embrace, I take a step back and cross into ultimately my own purpose. The predictions, foreshadowing, and adumbrations. The facts are that I feel lonely because I always look up at the sky at night. That time to proceed back into your silhouette. I neglect the sun, even when it is my own time to illuminate my own soul. I get jealous of others but I realize it is on me to light myself afire. To run in the sun and chirp my own song. Everyone has their own way. Loneliness may have held my shadow back but I will not allow it to smother me. I will step into my light.